I cried about us and got it all out of my system. I definitely feel lucky to have been able to be in his life that way, and no matter what happens, no one can ever take that away from me. And now I’m ready to start a new chapter in my life. =)
Where to begin? Well, there was a bit of drama in the home the past few days, but hopefully that has all blown over by now.. So I won’t let it drag into this week. Other than that, I’m staying busy. VERY busy. I’m hungry for success. Whether it be in my Fashion Design class, internship, or even my shifts at work. I just want to work hard at everything I do, because I know it’ll pay off in the end somehow.
Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
And before you leave this page, listen to the words of this song. Because I can’t put it any other way than just this.
Sarah Dessen (via kimberlyjane)
I can never forgive you for not putting in the effort when things didn’t come so easy for us. But I can’t blame you if I didn’t make you happy enough to make me YOURS after all this time.
I’m in love with your friendship, and I thank God that’s the case. Because if it were anything more…
I don’t remember the last time I felt this good about myself.. It’s not just the fact that I’m really on top of school, but I paid off another credit card, picked up an extra shift at work, and still had time to work out at least 5 times. My stomach has been flat all week, bags have been mild under the eyes, and I’m finally getting my hair re-didz tomorrow. If I learned anything this week and could share some words of wisdom, it would definitely be that you are NEVER too busy to take care of you. On top of a 40 hour work week, school 4 days a week, and neverending homework and studying.. Shave your legs, pluck your eyebrows, take a bubble bath, and just sit down and have a glass of something alcoholic. It’ll do you good. =)
I think I just realized that I deserve so much more than when I’ve been getting, and when I allow myself to indulge in that attention, I’m a much happier person. No more settling for me.. I don’t have time for bullshit. I may be 19 years old, but you guys know that I have a lot set for me and I don’t work hard for nothing.
And to sum it all up.. Here is my desktop background. Why is this my background? I still don’t know.
Having conversation with a straight guy that isn’t attracted to you.
One day I will go to sleep, and never wake up. That scares the shit out of me.
The part of me who woke up every morning hoping that today would be the day, no longer exists. And let me tell you.. It feels fucking amazing.